Translation is my dream career, and I am a happy translator who has constant projects from different customers from across the globe all the time.
At the same time, I am an exhausted translator who does not have a single holiday for months. Whatever I am doing and wherever I am going, I always think of my work. Recently, I am losing peace of my mind because of too many works.
For example, last Friday was the class day for one of four sessions of Kasako-juku, and I surely had been adjusting my job to keep myself open. However, because I could not stop myself taking up the job, I lost my balance of scheduling and in the last moment, I had to skip the class. For what had I subscribed to the seminar all the way from India? What a nonsense person I was! Still hopeful to say hi to the lecturer and other participants after the class, I was working at BASES coworking space at Hakata because it was near from the class venue, but finally that also could not happen. How disappointed I was at that time.
One of my biggest problems is the lack of scheduling and time management skills; in other words, I keep on taking up the jobs come on my way. All the customers are important for me, and it's hard to decline the job.
On the contrary, I am frustrated and hate myself as I admit that I am not producing 100% to each job, in spite of my strong desire of doing the perfect job.
All these factors make me hesitate to take a holiday; I will not be able to feel peace and rather mentally threatened during the holiday, as I do not have enough confidence in myself. I will keep on thinking of jobs during my vacation.
I am doing the job I love and getting sufficient income that makes me feel satisfied, why still am I not happy? Just because of poor self-management, everything gets spoiled. I am always anxious and worried if I can survive as a translator.
What do I care the most for the job? That is to take full responsibilities of my job.
Apart from providing the best for the customer satisfaction as the sure thing, keeping enough time for studying and learning, manage time properly to complete the work sufficiently, and moreover, take appropriate rest and break to maintain the creativity high, for better work for the long-term future.
Ideally yes, but actually I am not following this routine, and as the result, I am even causing inconvenience to my customers.
I am sad, but I must face the reality. I will keep on asking and reminding myself the essential of the job for my life.
